Hey,
Yesterday morning at 7:30 AM I got a phone call from my mom telling me I needed to come home... 4 hours from where I live now. My grandma was in the hospital, and they thought she had a stroke. So I drove up to Binghamton, NY, and that is where I am now. She did not have a stroke.. my mom fibbed to me so I wouldn't be so upset when I found out the real news. When I got here, they informed me that the lung cancer that she had been free of for over a year has masticized (is that the word) and was now in her brain. She has 3 brain tumors now. They started radiation today and will do so for 15 days. This is an attempt to shrink it and prolong her life... but it won't be more than a few months (6-12 max).
The reason it came up is because last night, she couldn't see. She called my Uncle Danny and my mom in a panic. She was dizzy and had double vision. She was really confused and they actually did think she had a stroke last night. She wanted to talk to me at 2 AM because she thought she was going to die, and kept asking my mom "Am I going to die?" My mom tried to call me 5 times. They thought she was going to die... she was really close to it, which breaks my heart to think that I may not have gotten to talk to her.
I spent some time with her today. She's kinda coherent. I'm glad I got to see her some. She's laughing. She knows what's going on... but I don't think it's reality yet. Does that make sense? We're staying in what's called Danielle House... it's a donation based home where people can stay if family is in the hospital. It's really nice. I'll probably return to Ship Saturday if she stablizes. Only so I can get back to normalcy and function.
We're praying that she'll make it through the holidays.I am totally heartbroken. If you remember, I lost my Grandpa (her ex-husband) during the fourth of July weekend. I haven't processed it yet... and won't till I get back home to Ship. I need to be strong here for my Grandma. Please pray for my family to have unity (we've always had issues with that) and for Grandma not to suffer.. and for me to be strong.
In His Love and For His Glory,
Marti
