Author Topic: A Petition UPDATED AGAIN (Read 3804 times)

Minister Polarius · « **on:** April 14, 2009, 04:12:47 PM »

Ok, basically, there's some ridiculous stuff going on in my life, and for the first time I can remember I'm fully back to being in right relationship with God. I've realized and changed a lot of things that pertain to the board (id est, you won't be seeing me bickering anymore), and there has been a general upward progression in my faith. But the crazy stuff is still there.

I know that God says the prayers of a righteous man avail much, and I know there are quite a few on this board who meet that qualification. What's mainly the issue is that my girlfriend of 6 months and I are having a very hard time and are currently not together. But we still love each other and still want the future that we had been planning. We each need time to work on our own lives individually before we can share them again. But she had taken the break very hard, and now she's acting immature and not working on what needs to be worked on. I said some very hurtful things to her, so it's not like I'm the good guy and she's the bad guy. But what I am asking for is prayer that she will reach out to God, because right now I am sure and have a peace about knowing that if we both focus on God and keep moving toward him, we will find each other again.

This is a serious relationship in which we were talking about marriage as early as next summer at one point, and it is not over entirely. I would be a fool not to tap into such a willing supply of prayer warriors as I know are here. So here is what I ask for prayer for:
1. That I would continue to seek God
2. That Johanna would also seek God
3. That the changes God has made in me are permanent
4. That God would be faithful to give us the desires of our hearts (each other) if we continue to seek him
5. That once we are reconciled, we will still continue to seek God for the rest of our lives

Thank you for the prayers I know will be coming.

Sean · « **Reply #1 on:** April 14, 2009, 04:31:46 PM »

It seems like you are growing in your faith. For that I am glad. I will be sure to pray for you in these things.

YourMathTeacher · « **Reply #2 on:** April 14, 2009, 05:32:16 PM »

I don't know if I qualify as a "righteous man" but I will pray nonetheless.

soul seeker · « **Reply #3 on:** April 14, 2009, 06:30:51 PM »

First off, I will be praying for you during this time, your growth, her growth, and your overall relationship.

Second, I would like to encourage you to apologize for the hurtful things you said (since you know the words were hurtful). I know this is hard especially if you are holding to a certain premise (just expressed in a wrong way), but we are to encourage and lift up one another and I think it would go a long way into helping her mature spiritually as well. I don't know your situation at all, but I know a humble apology goes a long way when someone has been hurt by words (it does in my marriage at least.)

STAMP · « **Reply #4 on:** April 14, 2009, 07:37:25 PM »

My knees are getting older but they are never too old to bend for a brother. I will pray.

New Raven BR · « **Reply #5 on:** April 15, 2009, 12:30:39 PM »

i'm praying for ya bro.

wk4c · « **Reply #6 on:** April 15, 2009, 01:07:08 PM »

I just wanted to say I really appreciate your maturity, fwiw. I'll be praying.

Minister Polarius · « **Reply #7 on:** April 15, 2009, 11:19:05 PM »

Update:

Things are over between us. In human terms, we're never going to get back together. There is room for God to work a miracle but I am no longer hopeful for that. So in your prayers, please pray for her as she is on a very dark path now that she doesn't want to admit she is on. I am grieving, but I have God still and the progress I was making isn't going to stop because my hope for reconciliation is gone. But I still love her very much and care for her so deeply that the hardest thing of the whole ordeal is knowing that I will have to watch her go through what she is about to go through. I love her so much that I would even take her back at some point in the future if God decides that's still the good he wants for me. Thank you for the prayers and please keep sending them up.

Captain Kirk · « **Reply #8 on:** April 16, 2009, 10:49:56 AM »

I will be praying Daniel. It is definitely not easy to deal with such a hard situation, but it sounds like you have the right perspective. God will bring about good in this.

Kirk

Arch Angel · « **Reply #9 on:** April 16, 2009, 06:51:06 PM »

It's difficult to release someone you love to follow the truth, I know, but know that Yahweh's smiling on you now because of your faithfulness. I'll be praying- for both of you.

Minister Polarius · « **Reply #10 on:** April 21, 2009, 03:55:17 AM »

To the people who know me on these boards, does this look like something I'm going to let go without a fight?

God revealed something to me as I was looking at old pictures of Johanna and me together. There is a time for brokenness, where you have to rely on God to just give you the strength to make it through the day. But you can't linger there too long or rest becomes laziness. As you move forward, you still have to trust in the Lord 100%, but we're not called to be weak. We're called to be good stewards of what God has given us. God gave me Johanna and he gave me qualities that will let me keep going.

My vision has been narrow beyond belief the past few weeks. But I resolved to myself and God that if I ever lost Johanna, I would do everything I could to win her back. I realize that's probably not going to happen and it's a fool's mission, but would I be able to live with myself if I just lie down and took this? Never. I probably won't get her back, but until she's dead or married or God brings someone else into my life or tells me to stop, I'll keep trying. The best part is, this enables me to live my own life to the fullest instead of pining, too.

Thank you all so much for your prayers, and please keep praying for both of us. For me that I will be able to keep my eyes on God, and for her for the same reason that I've been asking this whole time.

Prof Underwood · « **Reply #11 on:** April 22, 2009, 07:11:56 AM »

Daniel,
I have really been impressed with some of the things that you have talked about recently regarding your life getting back on track with where God wants it to be and that leading to real changes big (Joanna) and small (not arguing on this board). I have also been a bit confused by some of the mixed messages such as 1-there's no chance for reconciliation, 2-I saw my future without her, 3-I'm going to try to win her back.

I will pray for you. I am also available if you would like to talk more about your situation. If you are wanting Biblically-based advice that doesn't pull any punches, then I would be willing to give it if asked.

777Godspeed · « **Reply #12 on:** April 22, 2009, 09:51:39 AM »

You are in my prayers. These are never easy situations to go through physically, emotionally or spiritually.
Psalm 23.

Godspeed,
Mike

Minister Polarius · « **Reply #13 on:** April 22, 2009, 03:09:11 PM »

Professor,

The conflicted messages are because of shifting perspective. God's not done working in me. I got a lot of things right the first few weeks, but at least one lesson I still had to learn was not falling into the snare of thinking I was so smart. All I could see was very time-limited and limited by human perspective. What I understand now is that a lot can happen in just a year, and anything can happen if it's God's will.

What that essentially means with regard to my change in perspective is that, while points 1 and 2 are still true in human terms, 3 is more of a function of being completely willing to let God work in me. Part of the person God made me is someone who does not back down from something I see as important. In God working more in me and remaking me into who he has always wanted me to be, he has reminded me that I am a fighter. Right now, that fighting takes the form of prayer and redoubled dedication to resisting falling into any snares that would hurt a future chance. Maybe in the future, maybe not, I'll be able to do more.

I've come to understand that faith isn't lying idle and letting God do everything. Yes, there are some times when God forces us to be completely reliant on him just to make it through the day. But it is our duty as kingdom builders to begin working to a point where we will be ready when he gives us work to do again. If God has a plan to bring us back together, I need to be working and praying to the point where I will be ready to do right by her. It's all dependence on God and obedience to his desire for us to measure up to his full stature and surpass his works.

How should I contact you to talk? I'm never one to turn down Godly advice.

Prof Underwood · « **Reply #14 on:** April 22, 2009, 04:17:43 PM »

Quote from: Minister Polarius on April 22, 2009, 03:09:11 PM

How should I contact you to talk?

For off the cuff advice, it would be easiest to join one of the many Hamachi groups that I am in. For more meditated responses, since we are friends on FB, you could send me a message there.

As for God not being done working in you, it is a very good thing that God isn't done working in any of us

Minister Polarius · « **Reply #15 on:** April 22, 2009, 04:39:13 PM »

Nor will he be until Glory. Amen to that.

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